Remembering 9/11

September 11, 2001 is a day that will never be forgotten in the minds of many Americans

It has been five years since i stood in my bathroom getting dress with tears in my eyes, You see My grandfather had just passed away and this was the day of his viewing. My Princess a 5 1/2 yrs old at the time was at kindergarten, it was only her 2nd week of school and Mr. man was taking a nap just a baby still. I was PG with sweet pea at the time and was trying to figure out if any of my normal dress cloths would still fit me, which they did not so i had to break out a maternity dress for the 1st time with this PG.
As I was getting dress the phone rang and it was my DH, he said "I don't think i want you driving to the viewing now" I was clueless to what he was talking about and was upset with him for telling me i couldn't go to my grandpas viewing. Then he said "you haven't been watching tv at all have you?" which i wasn't. I turned on tv just as the 2nd tower of the WTC was falling.. OMG I couldn't believe it. I just sat there in shock crying my eyes out, at what had happend. Plus I was 4 1/2 months PG and my hormones were all over the place and my grandpa was dead.

I did go and get Princess from school and I did go to the viewing. I took the kids to my other grandparents house while i drove that long drive to get to my grandfathers viewing. I couldn't stop crying not only for the lose of my grandfather but also because of everything that had happened. I was worried about leaving my babies and driving alone so far away. I didn't know what to expect for our world as we had know it. Next thing you know buzzing over my head sort of low to the ground and right above my car are these 4 big huge fighter jets. I tell ya I flipped out and was thinking DH was right I should have stayed home with my babies where i knew we were sort of safe. You see I wasn't too far away from the Cleveland Hopkins Airport. It wasn't until i got to the funeral home that I found out about the plane that had flew over us, IIRC it was the one that went down in PA. The talk at the funeral home for those 6 hours i was there was all about what had happened that day. It helped me keep my mind off the fact that the next day we were laying my grandpa to rest

When i got home that night and saw and heard all that had went on in NY and PA and Washington DC. I was in shock and remember thinking what sort of world will i be raising my children in and will we be at war here on US soil when my new baby is born. I couldn't stop holding Mr. Man and hugging on Princess. Though we were trying our best NOT to let Princess watch too much of the death that was on the tv set.

She knew what was going on to a point as much as a 5 year old could understand but I didn't want her to have dreams all night long of air plans crashing into things. But even though I didn't let her see it all on tv, she was afraid and worried. that week while coloring in her bedroom she drew a picture of a plane flying into a tower and she also had people falling from that tower. As a parent I wasn't sure what do do with that or how to reassure her that it was going to be ok when I wasn't 100% sure myself.

Thankfully we have God and My Princess had already except christ and could understand about trusting God to do what was best for us even if we didn't understand it. So we talka lotbout God and his protection and his plan and prayed for all the families of the people who had died and we Prayed for God to give President Brush guidance in what we should do next.

Five years later the thoughts of those days and the stories of the lives lost still breaks my heart and put me in tears, but my life has gone on, I didn't lose any friends or family like thousands and thousands of other did, Since then I have lost my grandmother also, I had Sweet Pea, I lost my angel baby and I gave birth to Little man. I see on TV the wives and children who lost there husbands and fathers and I can't help but Think what if that was my husband, my children growing up without there daddy, MY heart just breaks. Sweet pea is the same age as alot of those 9/11 babies and she never would have got to meet her dad. Little man wouldn't even be here. Life would be so different.

Today being the 5th anniversary of 9/11 a ton of bloggers are paying tribute to those who lost there lives.
some of the ones I have read so far are

http://www.rocksinmydryer.typepad.com/

http://www.missingjtsnow.blogspot.com/

http://luckyandtrouble.blogspot.com/

http://pinktangerine2.blogspot.com/

http://houseofzathras.blogspot.com/2006/09/remembering-maria-jakubiak-911_13.html

http://cosmicsiren.blogspot.com/2006/09/911-tribute-richard-g-catarelli.html

http://thunderrun.blogspot.com/2006/09/george-lopez-one-of-2996.html

http://mamakbear.blogspot.com/

http://crazydustinmycoffee.blogspot.com/

http://gatordays.blogspot.com/

http://finelly.blogspot.com/

http://www.beauchampfamily.com/

http://purple4mee.blogspot.com/

http://suzysnapper.blogspot.com/2006/09/angel-in-rough.html

There are many many many other tributes and you can find and view them here

http://www.dcroe.com/2996/?page_id=2

Thank to all of the bloggers who showed there love by doing this.