Always loved and Never forgotten.

It has been 3 years ago today that we found out we had lost Alyssa our sweet little baby who grew in me for 13 weeks.

For weeks now I had planned on writing a post about what happened that day how I felt, what people said and How God used this in my life to help me grow..
But today I just can't do it. I will Always remember and never forget, there is a spot in my heart that belongs only to our sweet little baby who we never got to hold, but today I just can't bring myself to type out this story. Shannon over at Rocks in my dryer did a wonderful Remembering post earlier this month in it she wrote "My home and heart are full of happy, noisy, funny memories enough to mull over for a lifetime. But with my treasured box of few tangible reminders (sympathy cards, hospital records, and even a faded pregnancy test) I remember--I will always remember--my few short weeks as that little baby's mother.
And I smile."

My home and heart are full of all of those joyful things also, and I too have my treasured box with the little blanket I bought for the baby when I 1st found out I was expecting, the faded pregnancy test, dried up roses(they were the roses Princess brought to me after I got home from the d&c) Bible verse and songs I wrote down that helped me get though the pain and move on with life, Things God laid on my heart during that time and the only photos I will ever have our my sweet little baby.. her 1st ultra sound photos. Most days I can think of her and smile. I thank God for the short time she was growing inside of me, I also thank Him for working his perfect will in taking her.. That is something very very very hard to do, BUT God is in control. He taught me so much and I grew in Him so much from this and He also gave me Little Man who wouldn't be here other wise. I Praise and Thank God for all 5 of my children the 4 I have here with me and the 1 I don't.

My sister sent me this song by Watermark called Glory Baby.. I wish I knew how to add the song into my blog for you all to listen too but I don't, So I'll leave you with the words.


Watermark - Glory Baby Lyrics
Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…

Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little babies, it’s hard to understand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…

Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

BRIDGE:
I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…
all you’ll ever know…

Little Alyssa Reese you are always loved and never forgotten.